don't be a pessimist.

those kind of people are soo incredibly lame.

Hypocritically speaking, people like me. why does everything seem so unfortunate and bitter these days. it is definitely a bittersweet life. No doubt about that. why cant i view things in a positive way anymore. Everything feels dull. And some people have ruined my days lately. Its like they have the same problem as i do, except i actually make an effort to stay aglow most of the time.

Oh, the ridicule.

But anyway the other day turned out pretty great, Happy 16th Birthday to Marc!!(:

we ate at pat&oscars then invaded Inland mall. Then a few of us went to take pictures in the photobooth, and decided to skip through the mall but got yelled at by a kiosk saleswoman and threatened to call security if we ever tried being happy asian kids fluttering across the mall. well she obviously didnt see it that way since she said the mall wasnt a playground and we shouldn't be running, well, that just shows how much of a happy person she is. Not.

then ryan and breanin played gay, and homosexually held hands and got all physically intimate. hahah that was pretty darn funny. who knew straight guys could act so gay as well, that just tells a whole lot about them. hahahaahah kiddinggg. but yeah that was like one of the few fun moments this week.

summer is gradually coming to an end, what is this madness!!? wow, Junior year, here i come...

what are you waiting for?

i dont know, something amazing, i guess.

hello wonderful world,

you cease too hold neverending adventures for me:) haha

not reaaallyy. wow. i am not making sense am i?

this is why its good no one reads my posts. hahah.

it just helps me write out my random thoughts and life stories.

today did not take me by surprise like i thought it would.

it was sooo boring, and i was away from home.

thats so unlikely, i always have a great time when im not home,

guess today was not one of those many days.

but today i went to my bro's basketball practice.

it was me, my bro, earl, and breannin,

and we got lost and wasted about 5 gallons of gas.

but twas fun, who doesnt enjoy a wild car ride. hahah ohman.

but the rest got really lame, no marketnight again for me:/ booo.

so hopefully tomorrow's better, ive got more plans, if everything comes out right, that is.

au revoir, bellezas.

♥ sherleeene.

hothotheat

"Everything happens for a reason. People change so you learn to let go. Things go wrong so you can appreciate when things are right. You hear lies so you can trust yourself. And good things fall apart so that better things can fall into place."

woww, last night was pretty intense. i got in a really deep conversation with one of my fellow siblings. He implied so many different aspects i had to look out for in life. and how we learn so much more through different experiences through life. hahah why is this sounding so philosophical? but anyway this week has been one of the most boring weeks of summer. my mom thinks she can just lock me up and take fun away, and to my surprise im totally okay with it, ironically. unless something amazing happens and she decides to cut me some slack. or maybe its just me, i really havent been doing as she'd ask, and if i have i didnt really fulfill the whole task:/ so i could see how this takes a toll on me.

but anyway, so many things are just going on and ive been thinking a lot lately, thinking soo frequently about soo many things. but somehow all this thinking doesnt take me anywhere, it just keeps me awake for two extra hours as im fidgeting in bed.

and just yesterday i discovered a long half a strand of white hair on my head, am i stressed or something? it doesnt feel like im stressing about anything too drastic that can possibly give me white hair:( that was pretty sad.

Things seem pretty different lately, and lifes not as blissful as i always thought it felt like. i just dont stop to think about it. Cause with so much going on, theres really no time to stop and smell the roses, or whatever they say. i cant even recall a time where i had been genuinely happy.

anyway, summers been great i guess. we should hangout. speaking of it, theres someone i still need to hangout with, we will(:

so with all thatt, have a wonderful day. no one even reads this cause no one even knows about this. anywayyy, yeahh. to whoever, i guess.

sincerely, sherlene.

fridays

are glorious. the end of the week after long tiresome weekdays. but why should i be complaining, its summer vacation right? theres nothing academically related to these passing days that could somehow overwhelm me. but why do i feel so burdened these days.

i miss my school friends, i feel like i havent seen them in ever. i could really use a day chilling with them. they complete me. maybe more than those who i thought were standing by me all along. but then again who are They to blame. Change is definitely inevitable.

so today i woke up at got dressed and my bro took me to inland to buy new sunglasses. But like always i ended up buying a little extra thing to fulfill my satisfaction. i loove clothes. so i bought a dress for church which now leaves me as broke as ever. Job offers please? i could babysit your kids or pets, im desperado for cash(: oh summmmmmertime. take me to the beach and we can buy ice cream, rent vintage bikes, and watch the sunset together :)

and just so you know: some things never change do they ;)

why..

why is it that you know something keeps hurting you, yet you keep coming back for more. when does one learn to let go? could it be a simple someone who keeps your mind off of it? or spending a day on the outside world reflecting on things other than that one thing.

why do these things just exist, why are our feelings uncontrollable sometimes?

when can some things just go away and neverever come back..

fresh start?

helloo(:

soo ive decided to start blogging again after almost two years now... i think. but anyway its summer, and ive decided whats better than using at home time writing about my day. besides might as well make use of it cause this might be another one of my failed blogs that im just gonna forget about. so, summer has been good, better than past summers ive had in my life. its more exciting i can tell you that, probably cause my bro can finally drive and take me places, which reminds me i should go to dmv and take my written test already, but my mom keeps on delaying and time just passes by and by. so who knows when i'll actually get the time to finally take it and get my permit. ughh i feel so overdue, i shouldve gotten my license this summer!! motherfcuker. but whatevs, i'll get it eventually. hopefully it doesnt get too late.

i want summer to be more and more exciting. i wish everyday could just be more amazing than the last, if only.